too much.

I think the only pair of shoes I’ve worn the past month are my Birkenstocks. I came to the realization that these shows rule my life but I need another pair of sandals for the season. And no flip flop are strictly for the beach or for runs to the deli….


I have white birks and was thinking black or brown (cognac shade) wedge sandals, but with an even wedge, or those high gladiators, that Alexander Wang already “brought back” about a year ago. But people finally caught up?

Idk what’s it going to be…

“Only real travelers can handle the pressure and exhausting feeling that comes from being a stand by passenger”

It’s been far over 24 hours since I left my house in Brooklyn, NY. I was at JFK aaaalll day yesterday. No hope. Accompanied by about thirty other stand-by passengers. Two of them made it to Fort Lauderdale, that was the 5th or 6th flight that I was hoping to get on that day. Eventually I decided to at least head anywhere south. I would have changed vacation plans and gone to San Fran or New Orleans but sadly my luggage has been in Florida since 9.30 am…since yesterday, so it made it’s way there. Owner, not so much. And vacation with no change of clothes or hygiene products?No thank you.

Well anyways headed down to Washington-Dulles Intl. & got a connection to Charlotte, NC. Stayed in a shitty airport hotel that looked a little like something out of a horror movie and slept with the light on. Note I NEVER sleep with the light on but I’m pretty sure the door wouldn’t even lock properly ok?

I was very wishful of getting a flight early this morning and jumped on the shuttle at 5.30 am. Well I made it here but so did 11 other stand by passengers all just staring at the board as our flight said “taxiing” aka. no seats for us.

Just changed my flight to destination; Miami hoping I actually make it this time, there’s actually some hope this time around. Wish me luck!Still have to make it to fort lauderdale from Miami but hey thats’s what trains and busses are for, nothing can phase this bish.

P.S. The whole purpose for this trip was to spend sometime by myself and thinking about some quite significant life changing decisions, but hey at least I can add this to the “tap me on the back I was patient” list & soon I’ve gathered quite a few of these stories so I could probably write a comical or advice book on the subject?yeah.





The pictures are from my last visit to Fort Lauderdale. Hope the weather is on my side this time.



Long day, too many thoughts, harm, mental and physical. You take the days as they come, it feels as if you’re only holding on by a thin thread. You’re just one in the crowd. Not scared but scarred. Toxins in your body make your heart beat fast, you take a deep breath and for a second you feel like it’s your last. There’s no cure but this for now, it’s not healthy but it’s a way of coping.

Sleepless nights go on, you can’t force a smile anymore, it’s all a trap, your heart skips a beat and you fall into a deep thought with all the hate that brought you to this.


-Me (a year ago) 

I can relate but I know I’ll be fine and school, work etc. will keep me focused. 

Have a great day and don’t forget to love yourselves, you are amazing. 

Spring 2014….

Made it through my two first classes, art history, which I enjoyed a lot, Professor Rich also seems very nice!My second class was english, which only lasted 30 min. Since I got out early from english I headed over to the library at school and looking at parkas for the spring. I might watch some netflix before heading to my math class…which I am DREADING. Only because I loose my interest in math faster than a balloon flying up in the air (horrible comparison, excuse meh). Anyways I  always feel rested on Mondays so I like to have my longest day be Mondays. In between math (ends at 4pm) and my social studies class at 6.30 tonight I’m taking the subway home and then we’re going to look at an apartment on Lex. Busy but at least I’m productive.

I love my new lipstick by mac which I happen to be wearing, it’s called Hang Up. (picture from their website).

Image  It doesn’t look as dark when I wear it, more red-ish.

Take Care and good luck college studentz.

xx- yeni


The new year…

Ik I’ve been slacking but here are a few pics from NYE with my two besties back in Finland, we had a low key BUT absolutely great NYE!As you might know I spent my christmas break home in Finland, a lot of our friends were traveling and the rest of our friends celebrated pretty low key as well but personally I loved it. Just the three of us until midnight and then we took a cab to town and stopped by a few clubs, stole vodka sodas and pretended to be foreign, always a good time with L&L.

Here are some pictures!


P.S. I know this is super late!And I was wearing an old french connection dress, my vitafede bracelet stacked with some other bracelets and my black fox fur vest.




“Antioxidants help you loose your mind”

GREEN TEA addict back in action, i think, idk…I think it’s time to get a litttttle lighter, happier and healthier. Not a new years resolution, at ALL.

But all I got to say is; Green tea makes me feel good so picking up the habit of drinking 2-3 cups a day instead of coffee.


Jul Traditioner.

I do I do I do LOVE, love is an understatement LOVE (LIKE MY UNBORN FIRSTBORN) CHRISTMAS!

So although its way past christmas I’m making a mini Christmas Post about my traditional family Christmas.

Living in New York has its downsides too such as missing out on family events such as my Grandparents 55th anniversary the saturday before Christmas. Luckily enough they kept me in the spirit and sent me some pictures. On Christmas eve me and my cat arrived in Finland where my parents met me at the airport. I was lucky enough to have my boyfriend Ricky drive me to JFK and parents picking me up at Helsinki-Vantaa Intl.

My cat Bagheera (BB) was a great little kitty and behaved all the way from NY to Helsinki!When I got home I made BB comfortable and fed her etc. but then I finally got a few hours of sleep before the traditional Christmas eve dinner. In all of scandinavia (I believe) & Finland we celebrate Christmas on Christmas eve handing out gifts, someyimes attending church, usually going in the sauna before its time to start cooking etc. I personally prefer it over an american christmas but it’s probably because it seems more personal and family oriented in my opinion.

Dinner was amazing!We usually start off with some cold smoked salmon, potatoes, herring and other small treats. Then we traditionally move on to ham and these “boxes” and by boxes I mean three different casseroles, I honestly can’t memorize everything we eat but anyways then as an “in between” dish we eat “rom smörgåsar” which is white bread with “rom” (not liquor) but basically caviar which you mix with smetana and onion. I can’t explain this in english hahha anyways we also have some other traditional dishes such as a meat “pie” which we eat on christmas day. During the traditional dinner we also drinks Snaps which basically means smutting on vodka over dinner, we also drink wine and before and during the holidays we drink a warm drink called “Glögg” (look it up haha).

Well I am HORRIBLE at explaining our christmas dishes but its extremely good, at least in our opinion a typical american would probably not be too amused.

After dinner we drink wine and hand out gifts around the tree, which went quite fast this year as we celebrated with my parents, brother and all four grandparents. So no little kids running around, everyone seemed very satisfied with their gifts including me. I got more than I wished for!

Here are some pictures, they came out a little blurry, excuse that!

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