“Long day, too many thoughts, harm, mental and physical. You take the days as they come, it feels as if you’re only holding on by a thin thread. You’re just one in the crowd. Not scared but scarred. Toxins in your body make your heart beat fast, you take a deep breath and for a second you feel like it’s your last. There’s no cure but this for now, it’s not healthy but it’s a way of coping.
Sleepless nights go on, you can’t force a smile anymore, it’s all a trap, your heart skips a beat and you fall into a deep thought with all the hate that brought you to this.“
-Me (a year ago)
I can relate but I know I’ll be fine and school, work etc. will keep me focused.
Have a great day and don’t forget to love yourselves, you are amazing.
Made it through my two first classes, art history, which I enjoyed a lot, Professor Rich also seems very nice!My second class was english, which only lasted 30 min. Since I got out early from english I headed over to the library at school and looking at parkas for the spring. I might watch some netflix before heading to my math class…which I am DREADING. Only because I loose my interest in math faster than a balloon flying up in the air (horrible comparison, excuse meh). Anyways I always feel rested on Mondays so I like to have my longest day be Mondays. In between math (ends at 4pm) and my social studies class at 6.30 tonight I’m taking the subway home and then we’re going to look at an apartment on Lex. Busy but at least I’m productive.
I love my new lipstick by mac which I happen to be wearing, it’s called Hang Up. (picture from their website).
It doesn’t look as dark when I wear it, more red-ish.
Take Care and good luck college studentz.
Ik I’ve been slacking but here are a few pics from NYE with my two besties back in Finland, we had a low key BUT absolutely great NYE!As you might know I spent my christmas break home in Finland, a lot of our friends were traveling and the rest of our friends celebrated pretty low key as well but personally I loved it. Just the three of us until midnight and then we took a cab to town and stopped by a few clubs, stole vodka sodas and pretended to be foreign, always a good time with L&L.
Here are some pictures!
P.S. I know this is super late!And I was wearing an old french connection dress, my vitafede bracelet stacked with some other bracelets and my black fox fur vest.
GREEN TEA addict back in action, i think, idk…I think it’s time to get a litttttle lighter, happier and healthier. Not a new years resolution, at ALL.
But all I got to say is; Green tea makes me feel good so picking up the habit of drinking 2-3 cups a day instead of coffee.
I do I do I do LOVE, love is an understatement LOVE (LIKE MY UNBORN FIRSTBORN) CHRISTMAS!
So although its way past christmas I’m making a mini Christmas Post about my traditional family Christmas.
Living in New York has its downsides too such as missing out on family events such as my Grandparents 55th anniversary the saturday before Christmas. Luckily enough they kept me in the spirit and sent me some pictures. On Christmas eve me and my cat arrived in Finland where my parents met me at the airport. I was lucky enough to have my boyfriend Ricky drive me to JFK and parents picking me up at Helsinki-Vantaa Intl.
My cat Bagheera (BB) was a great little kitty and behaved all the way from NY to Helsinki!When I got home I made BB comfortable and fed her etc. but then I finally got a few hours of sleep before the traditional Christmas eve dinner. In all of scandinavia (I believe) & Finland we celebrate Christmas on Christmas eve handing out gifts, someyimes attending church, usually going in the sauna before its time to start cooking etc. I personally prefer it over an american christmas but it’s probably because it seems more personal and family oriented in my opinion.
Dinner was amazing!We usually start off with some cold smoked salmon, potatoes, herring and other small treats. Then we traditionally move on to ham and these “boxes” and by boxes I mean three different casseroles, I honestly can’t memorize everything we eat but anyways then as an “in between” dish we eat “rom smörgåsar” which is white bread with “rom” (not liquor) but basically caviar which you mix with smetana and onion. I can’t explain this in english hahha anyways we also have some other traditional dishes such as a meat “pie” which we eat on christmas day. During the traditional dinner we also drinks Snaps which basically means smutting on vodka over dinner, we also drink wine and before and during the holidays we drink a warm drink called “Glögg” (look it up haha).
Well I am HORRIBLE at explaining our christmas dishes but its extremely good, at least in our opinion a typical american would probably not be too amused.
After dinner we drink wine and hand out gifts around the tree, which went quite fast this year as we celebrated with my parents, brother and all four grandparents. So no little kids running around, everyone seemed very satisfied with their gifts including me. I got more than I wished for!
Here are some pictures, they came out a little blurry, excuse that!
I feel like posting more after my previous post got some likes and I realized people actually follow me…who knew haha!
Bedtime selfie and no im not wearing dark makeup it’s the filter….
sorry. I REALLY DO PROMISE I’LL UPDATE MORE HOLIDAY STUFF BUT RIGHT NOW… I want to hear if anyone has any good juicing experiences as me and my boyfriend want to go on a 3-7 day juice cleanse. This has nothing to do with the new year we just thought it’d be good for us as we tend to have unhealthy habits. You’ll hear about my new years resolution soon, it’s one that isn’t so selfish and silly as usual… Anyways I always wanted to try Blue Print but realized it’s 65$ a day!!!Insanity…yes I know that raw juice is expensive but it comes up to so much in a matter of just a few days and being that I’m 19 in College and supported by my parents I feel as that is ridiculous. So that being said we ended up deciding to just get a juicer and make the juices ourselves. If anyone knows any good juicing recipes please let me know, or good juicers as a matter of fact?
The Blue Print juices are really good they’re just really expensive to use as your only nutrition for several days, I do however buy them separately with or as lunch, afternoon snack etc. at Whole Food’s by my old apartment.
Here are my favorites; (pictures are not mine, source: tumblr.com)
I’m slightly addicted with the lemon, cayenne pepper, agave one, its kind of my dream in a bottle, if that makes sense….It’s addictive!The vanilla, cinnamon, agave one is very yummy as well but it’s more dessert-ish rather than a fresh drink!The lemon one can make you hot so it might not be ideal when its 100 degrees outside but otherwise it’s awesomeeee even worth the price (approx. 6-7 $).
Didn’t quite keep my promise about keeping this blog up to date but I’m going to make it my job this Christmas break starting tmrw!
Things to look forward to if you give a flying f*ck about my life;
- my Christmas
-About my school, my life in NY
-and the few upcoming days
Stay tuned because I know you love to stalk me, k bye…
I’d say spanksgiving because that sounds like way more fun, pun intended or not (your choice).
I have to say that although life has it’s rough moments I have been blessed with beautiful friends, family & pets. Along with a great, safe home, a best friend who I share everything with and call my partner etc. There are so many things I get to be thankful for. I believe we should all think about it a little more, at least there’s a holiday for that which I love, I traveled to LI to my aunts house for two nights. I wish my family was here like they were my first thanksgiving 2 years ago!
Lucky enough to see them soon, I will post Holiday pictures tomorrow!x Here’s a sneak peak!